The Euphoria of Being SAD

SAD, as it is, is also an abbrev. for Seasonal Affective Disorder. Pple who have SAD, are sad, especially when the seasons changes and specially during winter

Strange tt Marpig feels sad every now and then (and every so often...)

Just finished watching the korean drama, 天国之树 (if u havent watched it, Marpig rec it) & once again, Marpig cried like mad... Wat a very very very depressing and sad ending... *cries*

世上还有這样的愛存在吗?

Itz finally summer and weather is not tt freezing cold but the weather todae is strange, sunny yet weather hovers ard 8 to 16 degC

Marpig tend to get more moody during June/July... for reasons she cant say and reasons her understanding frens would have guessed

Anyh, received this bk "Veronika Decides to Die" by Paulo Coelho (Sexy Lady read his bks too!! Lend them to Marpig umk?) as a gift from XT a yr ago. Have no idea why XT sent Marpigz this bk (why huh?) but guess XT understands wat Cancerians (& more specifically, Marpig) enjoys reading sad, touching and "weird" stories?Therez always lesson(s) to be learnt from these stories and strangely, Marpig always find so much ths in her life tt these stories tell...

A while ago, XT had also given Marpig 2 other bks from Mitch Albom which Marpig read and cried!! Gosh... why is Marpig so easily touched? Guess itz bcos the bks speak of Marpigz own personal xperience and itz just like Marpig reading her own autobiography The above set Marpig thinking bout the 5 pple who would meet her (hopefully in Heaven)... or more like pple she would want to see in Heaven... every1 would want to see certain pple in Heaven when they passed on... definitely... reason being every1 would have done smth wrong or wanted to say smth to sm1 but didnt managed to... regrets in life which we wanted to rectify or xpress our innermost feelings which when alive, we never have the courage to do so. Hence, every1 will definitely have such desires... just tt pple nowsadae are too lazy to reflect. Tough.

Of cos, Marpig have regrets in life and ths she always wanted to say but didnt have the chance/courage to... in fact, Marpig could already think of 6 pple to see in Heaven!! May be the clever ones can guess a few of the 4 but nay, not all bcos every1 have secrets!! :PThe above bk... kao... made Marpig cried like anyth bcos throughout, she kept thinking bout Marpigz mom, TT fateful dae she heard the long "beeeeee" on the machine and cried her eyes out while squatting by the side of the door of the ward almost 7 yrs ago, TT period of darkness, the dae in the church where the Father said prayers but Marpig couldnt hear nor see anyth bcos of her streaming tears and broken hrt, the moment the roses and her body were consumed by the flames bhind tt glass door... tt guilt tt is still within Marpig ever since...

Gosh... Marpigz xtremely SAD mood had affected the weather; just a while ago it was sunshining and now itz grey and dark and seems like the skies is going to cry with Marpig...