Tuesday, April 24

Marpigz Concern over Marpigz Dadz "Overballing" Mind

The worry tt Marpigz dad might find another partner was thought to be gone but in reality, it has just gone under the carpet and has resurfaced over a telephone call from Marpigz dad…

To think during tt period Marpig thought she has 1 th to worry less… :S

Marpigz dad called bcos he wanted to tell Marpig tt XT is gonna collect the premium (right XT?) then do not noe wat happened, he said, to Marpigz dislike which Marpig clumsily hide away tt he “just made frens with a gal”

Diao~~~

Gal indeed. So, Marpig asked him, “Gal?... how old is she?”

Marpigz dad: Oh, no lah, she is about 50 (but Marpig reckons she is younger and she noes how to dress herself up type of aunty. Hmp!!) Her daughter owns a massage place (letz assume itz not dodgy as opposed to another of his fren whom he said opened a massage place but he said he no longer meet her. Yucks)

So, imagine Marpigz realisation tt worry still xists.

But, Marpig has more or less given up on Marpigz dad. The dae Marpig sent Marpigz dad tt emailed telling him how disappointed she is cos of blah blah blah, Marpig has given up on him to change for the better.

So, based on the last conversation with him on estimation of his monthly overspending and eating into his savings + his daughters are not rich + 1 daughter is earning peanuts and living alone etc, Marpig told him bluntly:

“U are going onto 60 yrs old and for a woman to want to be with u, itz most probably yr $. U also got to ask/tell her:

1) Is she willing to take care of u if u are sick or do u want to take care of her when she is sick
2) Will she still wants to be with u if u have no $

Don’t 4get u are overspending and I noe u like to ‘slap yr own face to look like a fatty’ so don go splurging just bcos she is yr fren. (Marpig specifically emphasized on this)”

Marpigz dad: … … yah I wont lah… I will control my spending… Will tell u again wat happens next time.

As if Marpig will ever believe him again. (Marpigz dad, if u ever has the chance to read this sentence, be very very very sad. This is how disappointed Marpig am with u… *teary eyes*)

Oh well, as Marpig has said many many times to him, if he ever remarries again, tt person will take care of him and Marpig will not bother anymore. It will just be giving him $ and ttz it. Unreasonable? Say whatever. This is Marpigz stand and she will stand firm on it. All of us will be unreasonable when it comes to certain ths. ALL OF US. So no point criticising how unreasonable/stubborn Marpig am w.r.t this issue.

To think Marpig was touched and believed Marpigz dad is a good and devoted dad and husband when Marpig saw how he took care of Marpigz mom till the very end. Ha. He WAS. When Marpig and Marpigz were young may be. When Marpigz mom was still alive may be.

… Itz better to be a spinster. U can spin wherever u like and not be affected by wat others might do to hurt u.

Curries, Meats, Poker and a Lost Marpig

Had a fantastic and full to the brim dinner @ a colleague's house. His wife had taken the trouble to cook for 6 people and there were

Curry lamb
Curry chicken
Grilled lamb
Chickpeas
Roasted chicken drums with potatoes
Vegetable bryiani
Starters consisting of samosas and marinated chicken wings

Yup. U guessed it. The colleague and his wife are Indians from South Africa. (Beenie would noe) There were simply so much food and the hosts were so nice Marpig really eat till she almost drops dead!! Cant breathe!! Hahahahaha

Then, we had drinks and as usual, Marpig cant hold her liqueur. But therez this drink from South Africa tt is so much like Baileys just tt itz sweeter and itz not too bad!! Itz called Amarula (as opposed to Kahlua) and itz only 2nd in popularity to Baileys!! Anyway, while others are drinking beers and Port like they would drink water, Marpig only had 2 glasses of Amarula (with added ice cubes to make it look a lot :P)

Then, we played Poker throughout the night from midnight to 5am!! Gosh!! Of cos, no real £ were involved but just chips and pennies. For the whole few enjoyable hrs, Marpig won only 1 hand… :S

Reminds Marpig of the time when she played (not poker but sm other games) with Marpigz mom… they did played with real $ and Marpig won Marpigz mom flat out!! But, prior to the windfall, Marpig was losing and had to resort to digging dimes out from Piggy Bank. TT was… … 5 (going on to 6) yrs ago… Marpigz sis took a few pictures of tt time and Marpig still kept the pictures till today… even brought it along with Marpig to the UK… it feels so real and just yesterday looking at the pictures… felt as though she is still alive… the pictures were taken with her thin as a stick… cos tt time she was still undergoing her chemo… sigh…

Smtimes… *looking out of the window at green lushy leaves* Marpig wonder (again) wat is life all about and is wat Marpig doing/going through now correct? Guess itz one of those melancholy daes again…

Please if any1 could pull Marpig back onto the road again? XT? Ding? Sigh…

Saturday, April 21

Marpigz Concern over Marpigz Dadz XXXtravagant Spending

Right, gonna have Marpigz 1st appraisal in the company.

Generally, every1 will see a raise, just HOW MUCH.

Currently, there is inflation in the UK @ 3.1% (CPI) and 4.8% (RPI) which is why now xchange rate from £ to $ is xcellent. However, it just means pple in the UK am paying more for gds and svcs... wage will have to go up too. Then, interest rates are going up, both for borrowing and savings.

Hahahaha, economics is a fun branch of science... should have become an economist or even in the financial sector... colleagues said Marpig looked like a lawyer whenever Marpig dressed for meetings... hmmm...

Anyway, going back to appraisal, Marpig was walking one dae and thinking how am Marpig gonna ask for more and a promotion... sigh... really hope to raise as much as £XXXX and promote to mech engr rather than being treated as a grad engr.

Anyway, Marpigz dad called and told Marpig he lost his mobile once again and how does he do photo tricks with Photoshop again... WHY DOES HE NEVER LISTENS OR LEARN?!

Sigh... 4get it. Was telling him the reason why Marpigz dad spends the way he does now…

1) It is Marpigz dad to spend EVERY SINGLE PENNY (maybe over even) when he feels rich. Marpigz mom gave this warning to her daughters even b4 she sets off to the Heavens.

2) He feels rich (and ttz VERY BAD) cos he thinks hez retired, he receive pension every month, he receive $ from BOTH his daughters who poor things, think of 102 ways to save EVERY PENNY in whatever they do, eat, spend in the bloody cold and grey UK.

3) Hez got too much free time and he does not do anyth MEANINGFUL xcept to play golf and go Vietnam 3 or more times in a month with his fren who has a sch ttz closing down in Vietnam.

Sigh… Frankily, Marpigz dad is getting from bad to worse and both his daughters have tried 102 ways to tell him, scold him, persuade him, etc for over 5 yrs and nth has changed at all. The daughters were utterly disappointed and dishrted. Gave up. Yes. GIVEN UP. (not 7-up… sorry, cant stand cracking a painful joke at this moment)

Thus, this time, Marpig do it the other way. Instead of telling him not to spend too much, telling him tt his daughters are saving like mad just so he can (still!!) be disillusioned tt his daughters are rich, Marpig and him did a simple monthly xpenses cal on the phone.

Marpig: So, let us do a simple cal on wat u spend every month *innocent voice*
Marpigz dad: ok
Marpig: Letz say u eat out everydae, 3 times a dae and $5/meal and it will be *mental cal* $100. Is it enough?
Marpigz dad: Wah, so much. I cook myself smtimes … … … *goes on bout thetype of food he cooks and how often albeit illusively*
Marpig: Ok… nvm lah, make it $100. Then, hw much u spend on car?
Marpigz dad: Think petrol is about $100/month
Marpig: ok… So now it is $200. Then letz say water and electricity is $100. And telephone and mobile and internet, say another $100. So now it is *mental cal again* $400. How much do u spend everytime u play golf?
Marpigz dad: Hmm… don really noe and depends. But think it is about $100+ each time
Marpig: *!!* *GULPS* Ok… *hides disgust* Letz say about $150 each golf game. How many times does u play golf/month?
Marpigz dad: Not fixed, may be once or twice a week. Like smtimes I will go with xxx … … … *goes on bout his golf mates*
Marpig: Ok… Letz say u play once every week minimum. So itz about *mental cal again* $600/month on golf. Now letz see… *pretend to be concerned and innocent* in total, u will have spent about $1000/month. But u also keep (said the word ‘keep’ very silently) going to Vietnam, etc places a few times each months. Even on budget airlines, u still pay about $300+ per return trip. U still need to eat and stay leh. So, overall, u will argar argar spent about $1500/month, assuming u go overseas once/month to nearby SEA countries. So how much is yr pension/month?
Marpigz dad: … … $800
Marpig: *Pretend to be very shocked and innocent voice* (though Marpig am not shock) Wah~~~ then u actually spend more than u get each month wor~~~
Marpigz dad: … … yah… but I will take from my savings mah
Marpig: Wah~~~ cannot like tt~~~ *trying to be as gentle as Marpig can pretend* (though am shivering… with frustration) every month u spend over u have and keep taking from yr savings, then u will end up with nth in the end~~~
Marpigz dad: Orh… ok lah, I will cut down on my spending… *thinking and abit concerned*

Marpig would say tt this sui generis tactic, is 75% successful in waking up Marpigz dad. The rest of the 25% is down to his Denial-to-Reality Devil in him.

Sigh…

Marpig never devote so much time for thinking bout $ matters, now, Marpig has became so 4getful… could it be tt Marpig subconsciously 12 run away from $ matters?

Sigh… looking @ the runway to and fro work each dae, the dream of learning to fly seems to fade away into the clouds…

Tuesday, April 17

3, 2, 1

Been reminded by Ding about sketching the comic characters created by Marpig... how many are there... *counting* cant really rem... poor memory, need Beenie to remind Marpig too, since sm of the characters were inspired by Beenie :P

Ah~~~ once again it is Springtime and would be Summer soon!! Am sitting in front of a small teeny weeny vertical sets of full length windows overlooking a park and trees and blue skies (smtime grey but now itz blue)!! During winter the trees were essentially naked; with branches tt looked like bony fingers waving (or were they shivering) in the gusty winter wind. Now, fresh new cutie-pie young leaves are budding out from the branches tt looked as though sm1 has put green blobs of cotton wools on the trees. Over the green patch, there are a few yellow dandelions (they haven lose their petals and seeds are not up yet, so not fluffy yet) lying here and there, busking in the sun!! So cute!! Wat a picturesque and soothing view...

Realised... Marpig will be seeing her 3rd Summer in the UK coming this June/July... although not strictly 3 yrs but yar, 3 summers... wow... how time flies... sigh...

Went grocery and saw 2 les couples. Hmmm... do they normally come out during Spring and Summer? Wow... quite a funny statement to make but hope itz not offending. Even if it sounded so, it was unintentional.

Cant think of smth tt has to do with 1... maybe this 1 bloggie entry? How unintelligent!! :S (which is the sole reason why this bloggie entry is titled 3, 2, 1... reminds Marpig of Pepsi Cola 1, 2, 3 hahahaha)

Anyway, was telling Beenie how Marpig employed a bunch of snails to deliver snail mails. Poor little snails, got to travel far and wide, through all sorts of weather, hide from all kinds of predators just to deliver the mails!! So, in Marpigz future comic story, there shall be a post office ran by snails. Yup. Cant do without them, can we? Plus, they will spice up the story too (erm, don think escargoes will be featured in the story at all)!!

Then, artists, writers, comic strippers tend to infuse pple who have left a mark in their lives into their works. Certain characters mimic the personalities and characters of the pple. In fact, the storyline/plot might even tell the audience of the author's life xperiences. Think Marpig will do tt too, if she ever really start the comic. But, itz hard to say, Marpig can be quite a procrastinating person... hmmm... maybe Marpig really need a PA, editor and artist.

In fact, Marpig already has names for the above mentioned positions!! hiak hiak hiak!! U noe who Marpig am thinking right!! *arm chioing*

Ok, ttz bout it for this bloggie entry... kinda have less and less to write... maybe cos am doing it in the office since laptop has gone down the incinerator. Sigh...

Sunday, April 15

Food and Drinks

Been to a afterwork drinking session with colleagues and has 1/2 a pint of cider. Itz not bitter and itz nice!! But, as usual, Marpig am red as lobster and itz bedtime... Anyway, went for Thai dinner after much psychoing from colleagues.

The Thai place was nice but expensive, paid like £18 per pax but guess occasionally itz still ok... plus,the food is really not too bad!! Shall bring tt guy when he comes to Bristol in dec :P

Along the way, colleague complained bout his fren's mother who came from Msia and stayed in the house. Complained tt shewas too calculative and did not cooked for them all after she complained his gf ate too much... hmmm

Conversation moved on to the wonderful mothers of frens who cooked for every1. Reminds Marpig of XTz, MWz and JMz ah ma and mothers who cooked for Marpig... *slurped* they are so nice and wonderful!!

Then, being Marpig, she rems her mother again... she was like them too; am ever so happy to cook for Marpigz frens and to see us eat happily (and gluttony :P) ML will noe... sigh...

Everyth has passed and Marpig now only cooks for herself... used to cook for Marpigz dad and frens but no longer have the luxury to do it since Marpigz not in Singapore...

Sigh... was just chatting with him over msn and told him Marpig is a melancholy person who live in the past, present and future, all at the same time...

Tuesday, April 10

4D3N Easter Break

Been to London for the Easter hols. Essentially, spent 4D3N in London. May be life in Bristol have been pretty slow and relax, so much so Marpig felt like a country pumpkin in buzzy London. Pple rushed about and u never now when sm1 might collide with u.

Transport is great but the shear vol of commuters drives pple crazy. Oh well, itz the hols and there are many tourists and students.
Was a lovely Gd Fridae morn when Marpig took a bus to London. Slept for most of the trip. Reached London. Tick booth was cramped with pple. Bought tick and went train-changing spree to get to church in Illford to meet sis for this aftern mass. Late and stood for 1.5 - 2 hrs... mass was especially long since Gd Fridae marks the dae when He was nailed to the X.

"And He bowed His head and gave up His spirit" upon these words, Marpig felt like crying... don noe why... may be the ancient scene of Him suffering and being humiliated was sad enough. Also, to Marpig, church has always been a place of xtreme controversy, mixed feelings, memories... just like hospitals are to Marpig. Bear in mind, the idea of duality in all things

Needless to say, any worshipping places are controversy. But, church is a place where Marpig had both heart breaking and fond memories... There was the funeral procession... there was also the wedding march of sisz wedding... oh well...

Anyway, guess Easter is smwat similar to our Qing Ming (felt like reciting tt Qing Ming poem but nvm lah!! :P) pple over here do take this time to go visit their (RIP) loved ones.

Been eating lotsa food over this hols. Cant recall everyth but had very nice dinner at a chinese rest, had a chinese buffet on the last dae too. :P Had Singapore curry with prata too!! :P

Sunday went for a countryside walking with sisz, BIL & their fren from HK. Took train to Guildford (Smwhere in Surrey) and walked to Gomshall. Bout 8+ miles (to convert miles to metres, multiply by 1.6)

Was really enjoying it!! Although the guide book said the difficulty level is 5 out of 10, to Marpig, it is a mere 2 out of 10. Basically, the weather is blue and great, the road is flat though the occasional slopes meant nth to Marpig.

Walked past the Guildford Castle but itz closed. Nth much actually... The castle is in ruins but the castle ground is nice.
Continuing our walk, we past this great place tt overlook towards oasis of lush green fields with horsies in the distant, grazing. This is so breathtaking and picturesque!!Along the way we saw a few churches... cant rem the names though... and the tombs with flowers.Oh, also saw this old man jogging topless and holding sm weights!! Cool lor!! Hez got 6 packs. Biangz. Alot of guys lose to this ol' man!! Along the 3 armed path, we came ax "Old MacDonaldz Farm" where barn animals can be seen. And yes, a sizable pig on lying on the ground!! Sooo cute!! Suddenly reminds Marpig of Pulau Ubin and the huge black boar in the bricked up barn. Ah~~~Then, like Dorathy from The Wizard of Oz, we came to a field full of yellow flowers!! (Not poppies lah!!) Strange... they look like sm sort of vege to us all... but we just cant lay a finger on wat it is... (which is why Marpig lay a finger on top in the picture :P) Hmm, smwat like the field of Lavender Marpig took in Hokkaido... deja vu indeed...Saw this defunct trunk tt reminds Marpig so much of giant sea clams!! Oh man!! Diving!! There was also a place where it makes an xcellent camping site!! Too bad, too bad...Finally, we xed a railway track to get to the other side of the platform. Biangz. 1st time xing railway tracks just to get to the opp platform.Oh ya, Ochar Load in Singapore is not unique...

Oh, went for a park walk in the evening (just cant get enough of walking!!) and spotted a very cutie LADYBIRD!! She (letz assume) was slowing xing the road... oooooh!! ahahahahahahaha
Must end this long bloggie with a bang. Other than the nice country walk, all the food, perhaps the best is tt Marpig spent £2 to buy this::D YEAH!!

Sunday, April 1

Birthdays and Parents

Like the Willy Wonka in Tim Burtonz Charlie & the Chocolate Factory, Marpig gets flashbacks of childhood again... (strange tt Marpig still hasnt let go...)

Was... or used to be a happy kid where birthdays were looked smth to look 4wrd to... Marpigz mom wil get ready red eggies (always 2 of them), ang pow and a cheery "happy bdae" to Marpig in the morning... do get to eat mee sua too, with chicken cos Marpig don like pigz livers...

After Marpigz mom passed away b4 Marpig turned 21, Marpig hated her own bdae:

1) Painful reminder tt Marpigz mom never made it to Marpigz 21st bdae
2) Marpigz momz bdae is only 9 daes after Marpigz bdae (yes, she is a cancerian too)

So, ever since, Marpig don really 12 celebrate bdae... afterall, it is jst another dae... with more painful memories...

Still rem Marpigz sis gave Marpig a Seiko watch on Marpigz 21st bdae... was really happy, not bcos of the watch but smth so touching... after all the ordeal...

Still, Marpig don really like bdae... not bcos it now reminds Marpig of her age but bcos Marpigz mom has gone, only Marpigz sis rem... Marpigz dad never... until when Marpig sent tt email to him on Marpigz years of disappointment...

Went to a frenz hse for dinner after work one dae... she showed us a card her parents from Malaysia sent her. It was a simple card but her parents took the effort to print out her pictures; from baby, to child, to teenager to adult and paste them on the card.

How loving and sweet...

Another was saying her parents wont do tt but will just give her $ and ask her to buy watever she likes/wants...

Only Marpig... sitting there... pretending to be nonchalant... but in actual fact, Marpig am terribly sad and jealous...

Becos Marpigz dad never rems...

Been thinking bout it through... maybe the reason why Marpig smtimes do silly ths and am so nonchalant bout ths in front of Marpigz dad and sis cos Marpig want to get more attention from them.

Always got a scolding from Marpigz sis, though Marpig noe she cares... it always feels gd tt they ask how Marpig am getting along, chid Marpig in this and tt...

Sounds childish, but Marpig guessed all of us wants our loved ones attention and tt is the way to get their attention.

Just like the reason why teenagers are astray; smtimes, sm of them just want attention from their parents...

Oh well...

Anyway... .... ... wat if sm1 said/hinted/etc to Marpig he is willing to wait for Marpig to go back Singapore?